May 13, 2008

Are You Ready?

I found this from Brittany's facebook and she found it somewhere. This is so realistic and i think everyone should take the time to read it. makes you think about college and everything.



A year has passed and now we stand on the brink of returning to a world where we are surrounded by the paradox of everything, and yet nothing being the same.

In one week we will reluctantly give hugs and fighting the tears, say goodbye to people who were once just names on a sheet of paper, to return to the people who we hugged and fought tears to say goodbye to before we ever left.

We will leave our best friends to return to our best friends.

We will go back to the places we came from and go back to the same things we did last summer and every summer before that. We will come into town on the same familiar road, and even though it has been months, it will seem like only yesterday. As you walk into your old bedroom, every emotion will pass through you as you reflect on the way your life has changed and the person you have become. You suddenly realize the things that were most important to you a year ago don’t seem to matter so much anymore, and the things you hold the highest now, no one at home will completely understand. The memories and the stories from school won’t mean anything to anyone at home and yet you resent them for that, they can’t share that happiness with you.

Who will call you first? What will you do your first weekend home with your friends? How long before you actually start missing people barging in without calling or knocking? Who will get pizza at three in the morning with you now? How long until you adjust to sleeping alone in a room again?

Then you start to realize how much things have changed, and you realize the hardest part of college is balancing the two completely different worlds you now line in, trying desperately to hold on to everything all the while trying to figure out what you have to leave behind. In the matter of one day’s traveling time, we will leave our world of living next door to our best friends, walking across campus to eat, instant messenger, 8:00 AM classes, and the perpetual procrastination, to a world that will seem foreign to us despite the fact that we lived in it for eighteen years.

But it is different now. We now know the meaning of true friendship. We know who we have kept in touch with over the past year and who we hold dearest in our hearts. We’ve left our high school world to deal with the real world. We’ve had our hearts broken, we’ve fallen in love, we’ve helped our best friends overcome depression, stress and death, and we’re stayed up all night on the phone just to talk to a friend in need. There have been times we’ve felt so helpless being hours away from home when we know our families needed us, and there are times we know we have made a difference.

One week from now we will leave. One week from now we take down our pictures and pack up our clothes. No more going next door to do nothing for hours on end. We will leave our friends whose random e-mails and phone calls will bring us to laughter and tears this summer. We will take our memories and dreams and put them away for now, saving them for our return to this world.

One week from now we will arrive. We will unpack our bags and have dinner with our families. We will drive over to our best friend’s house and do nothing for hours on end. We will return to the same friends whose random e-mails and phone calls have brought us to laughter and tears over the year. We will unpack old dreams and memories that have been put away for the past year.

In one week we will dig deep inside to find the strength and conviction to adjust, to change, and still keep each other close. And somehow, in some way, we will find our place between these two completely different worlds.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

i really didnt wanna get to emotional over the past days and all i've done is cry and this just made it that much harder :(
im gunna miss you<3

Anonymous said...

assshhh! This is soo true! it made me so sad though :( but this has been exactly what ive been thinking about.. especially since this summer is going to be so different for me.. thanks I needed to know that everyone else feels the same way as i do! <3 - im gonna miss my room...room 70 ! and you being right across the hall! =(

Anonymous said...

This post is sooo true, and I AM GOING TO MISS YOU!!!!! but i will be seeing you a lot :)

Unknown said...

That really is true, even though I'm experiencing it a little different...
miss u!!

Nicole said...

Dammmn ash this is so true and it sucks at the same time. It has giving me alot to talk about but it sucks how you leave for high school and you try your best to keep in touch with everyone from home but it just doesnt seem to work. I have said to myself that this summer will suck getting back together with my old friends, but i guess we will have to wait and see...and its scarry that we are out in the real world, and we wont be right across the hall anymore:( but in the end i believe that we all have each others hearts, and like you said memories to look back on that will never be forgotten. Keep in touch ASH!!! Love you

Meg said...

Wow. everything in this is true. it just reminded me of all the things throughout college weve all been through. i loved it though... :'( im going to miss you and everyone! <3 but well all see each other again soon!

Samantha said...

Just read this. It's so true. I'm printing it out for my "Florida Friends" most of who don't live in Florida lol. You figure three years in it wouldn't happene everyyear.

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